Stole this from He's a good kid you guy's should go check out his stuff.

10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now:

1. I only went out with you because the guy I liked wasn't interested, then we started going out again when he used me for a handful of days and dropped me like a hot potato. What you did to me wasn't cool, what I made myself into to make you happy is going to take a LONG time to undo, and I don't know if I can ever totally, unconditionally trust someone new after all the lies you fed me.

2. Shut up shut up shut up SHUT UP I'M NOT THE FAILURE YOU THINK I AM SHUT UP!

3. I have no idea why or how you're still alive you crazy kid...

4. I MISS YOU COME BACK!!! /cry

5. I wouldn't have left if you hadn't been a complete and utter asshole when I needed a shoulder the most.

6. I'm sorry I never called you when you get back I will have to drag you off to have some fun of some sort.

7. You're a good kid, you deserve better than the shit hand life has dealt you.

8. You bastard, you don't even know what "I love you" means, stop throwing it in my face it only hurts.

9. I'm sorry, what I did to you wan't right, I hope we can be friends again someday. I miss talking with you...

10. You've been prying open my shell, which is having unexpected consequences. All I can say is DAMN my dreams...

9 things people may not know about you:

1. I hate talking on the phone, I have to constantly fight to keep focus and I'm pretty sure it annoys the crap out of the person on the other end.

2. I'm more comfortable in the dark than in broad daylight.

3. I never ask anyone out because I fear rejection too strongly.

4. I love reading poetry, like The Sonnets and Emily Dickinson and Dorothy Parker and *blathers on*.

5. I can make epic freaking vanilla pancakes.

6. I love getting random hugs, even if I protest them at the time.

7. My characters are little more than facets of my personality. I'm not terrifically original...

8. The only movie I ever cried at was A.I.

9. I think snap-dragons are terribly cute flowers.

8 ways to win your heart:

1. Be nice, reasonably intelligent, sense of humor *insert generic crap here*

2. Don't look at me like I'm crazy

3. Don't lie to me all the time

4. Keep an open mind and be accepting

5. Hug me, hold me, and don't automatically expect pants access

6. Show some actual concern

7. Actually try to get to know me rather than assuming

8. Be your nerdy self

7 things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Why did they do/say that?

2. There is no way you're the end result of billions of years of evolution.

3. I really ought to get around to calling [insert name here]

4. Maybe if I keep my mouth shut I won't scare them away...

5. Bet I could fix it.

6. Wonder what that's like...

7. Maybe they're right and I really am the horrible person I thought I was...

6 things you do before you fall asleep:

1. Do homework/play WOW

2. Watch TV with family

3. Take inhaler

4. Argue with parents about lifestyle choices

5. Shower

6. Cuddle body pillow, wish it weren't so damned cold.

5 things you notice in the opposite sex:

1. Height (can't help it)

2. Eyes

3. Smile, or lack thereof

4. Voice

5. If they set off alarms or not

4 things you wish you never did/had:

1. Pushed you away when I wanted to pull you closer

2. Scoliosis

3. Let him lead me around by the nose for almost three years off and on

4. Not spoken up

3 songs to describe your life:

1. When There's No One Around - Garth Brooks

2. Evil Angel - Breaking Benjamin

3. Who I am Hates Who I've Been - Relient k

2 things you want to do before you die:

1. Finish writing at least ONE of my big stories and publish it

2. Make the people I care about the most truly happy

1 confession:

1. I know who's arms are in those dreams but I'll never tell. And no it's not an ex's.

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I would say Happy Turkey Day but since mom has decided to make roast beef this year... Happy Random Dead Animal Surrounded by Too Much Freaking Food Day!

I WILL get better at getting online and keeping up with you crazy people... but seeing as I have 572 Deviations and 258 Messages ( ) it WILL take me some time to catch up with everyone's stuff I am terribly sorry...

Lets see... what's new... started writing stuff in hieroglyphics again, so that's fun, especially when dad tries to read over my shoulder and all he sees is squiggle rock bird foot squiggle Also starting to decide on a) what to do with the rest of my life and b) if I should post this pic up here where I actually SMILED Like full on teeth bared legitimately happy looking smile. My complexion is finally improving, I think what did it was dropping a lot of dead weight from my life. Mostly letting old boyfriends/loves know that they need to gtfo of my life and letting some of this crappy emotional shelling drop off. Believe it or not I'm learning to like hugs again Yes Matt, that's means you're getting GLOMMED when we finally get around to visiting you

OH OH OH! And after I get my stupid AA I'm going to move out of my parents place, we're driving each other up the damned wall and it's high time I got out on my own and started living on top ramen!

HM... what else what else... ah well, you kids have fun feasting and for you limey brits (sorry Ben had to ) you guys go find an excuse to have fun too TTFN!

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Does anyone else find this article FASCINATING and why? I feel weird for enjoying it so much but if anyone else wishes to take a gander and let me know what you think I'd be overjoyed Namely I'm trying to come up with a conversation piece and this is the best I could do at two in the morning

Look kids I'm trying to be social

Quick update. Dumped Ryan a few weeks back now, so being single leaves me more time to do my homework. Not that we talked every anyways...
Not had as much wifi access of late, so been watching a lot of movies late at night... why in the world I would want to watch horror movies by myself in the middle of the night I have no freaking clue...

Well, gotta run I have a Bio lab to turn in in a few hours No me gusta... miss you all

*blinkblink*

Well, all the servers for WOWCrack are down this morning till 11... so I decided to stop being an ass and hop online.



I'm sorry, I'll go back and read everyones journals, I just had over 100 of them and flipped out... I need to stop getting online before I have any form of caffeine. And you know my family is out of town because the cat is actually on my desk next to me. I can't touch her, but she's one of those weird cats who wants someone in the room but does not want to interact with them... yeah. And I WILL get to the 220 deviations... I think I'm going to go through my watch list and edit what I watch from who...

Well, I should get into the shower, I do have class in a bit... I'll talk to you all later I swear...