Grey and Plain

I look into your eyes, and all I see is pain.
I go to play outside, all I meet is the rain.
I hide under the stone, grey and plain.
I hope you never ever find me again.

My heart is beating, red and fast.
I finally got my soul out of it's cast.
I think I got over you, finally at last.
Remembered you the peace didn't last.

"I'll be there if you need me" a tear.
You never were true, never ever clear.
You never knew me real, only my fear.
That doth not get to know me, my dear.

I had to hide, lied and said was okay.
Inside my head, only safe place to stay.
I trusted you, and then I blew it all away.
Wish you understood me as well as you say.

If you had wanted me, should have reached.
All my fortresses could have been easily breached.
Lessons hard learned but never consciously teached.
These dead cold patched hearts like pale bones bleached.

You were not there when I was terrorized.
Except for people that you once upon prized.
Now once were loved, only shunned and despised.
No longer can long hidden pains mutually be glamorized.

Seemingly destined to hurt each other
Once were all family to one another
Now, speak the names go shudder
"Love" likely thinner than water

I look into your eyes, and all I see is pain.
I go to play outside, all I meet is the rain.
I hide under the stone, grey and plain.
You never ever will find me again.